Made mistakes? Keep Calm, admit them, tell the truth and learn form them.
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Whatever mistakes I made, I'll never forget. I'll keep them as a reminder to never ever repeat the same mistakes. I've learned how to think positively, admit my mistakes and most importantly, learn from them. Everyone makes mistakes and I believe, everyone deserves a second chance.
Pray for my life in Form 6. I know it's definitely gonna be tough but I'm sure that I'll survive. I'll change to be a better me. I'll be more hardworking and determined. I won't let you down again, mama and papa. I promise. I will make you proud one day. :)
To my readers ( not sure if there's any lol ) , whatever mistakes you've made, don't be discouraged. Life goes on. Always remember there's always sunshine behind the rain, good times behind the pain. Just stay strong, think positively and you'll be alright soon. Never forget to keep yourself close to God too! Pray and ask for His guidance to keep yourself physically and mentally strong :)
here's some motivational quotes to keep you motivated. Enjoy
Today's post is basically gonna be about me. the ugly side of me.
25/4/13, the day to check for matriculation's offer. Since my cousin brother got it couple years ago, everyone was telling me to apply for it as it only takes up one year and you can enter U after that. Hmm, I remember, that year, I was only in Form 4. Time passed, and the next year, when I'm in Form 5, my aunt kept telling, reminding, and asking me to apply for matrix. So, okay.
The only thing I did was paying for the PIN number. Completely ignored and wouldn't bother to even give a shit in filling up my personal information in the matrix website. I don't know what encouraged me to do that. When I asked my friends whether have they filled in their personal information, majority of them or all said YES. At that time, I still didn't take any action. And the worse thing; when my mum asked me whether have I applied for matrix, I said yes. I had to lie. Couldn't bear to see her expression if I were to tell her the truth.
Now, I've regretted. Most of them who applied got it. No choice but to go Form 6. haih
Seriously, I can't understand why I acted that way. I mean, I didn't take things seriously during Form 5. Fyi, I studied last minute too for SPM. I even skipped chapterS for Sejarah, Biology, Chemistry, and Physics. How 'tokong' am I.
So, this is me. An irresponsible, foolish, ungrateful liar. And, I'm a complete motherfucker.
KEM LAGENDA SERI NEGERI KUMP1/ SIRI10/ TAHUN2013 .
It's all started when I online checked for my name in the NS list. As any other teenager out there, I was hoping and praying so hard that I didn't have to join NS cause I(not only me I guess) always think that NS SUCKS. It's like you'll be
living inside/near the jungle without family members and BFFs but with bugs and all kinds of insects,
completely lost from the modern technology world as there will be no internet/wifi provided,
having to eat curry with rice everyday for about three months,
marching under the hot sun most of the time,
waking up early in the morning,
washing your own clothes,
bathing with cold water,
and etc.
So, when I logged in the website and entered my name and I/C no, this is what I got.
my first expression was like ' FUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK THISSSSSSSSSS!' I got really pissed off. I was like 'WHY THE HELL ME? WHY ME?' the anger and sadness were indescribable.
then, after some time, we could check for our placing.
So, this is what I got.
yupppp, I got Langkawi. Friggin LANGKAWI. I didn't have the guts to tell my parents about it. So, I kept it to myself and my BFFs. I'm a bad child right? haha. It's for the sake of my parents tho, I didn't want them to get worried and feel sad. I would rather feeling sad and emo alone. :'(
Then, there's this one fine day, in a sunny morning, a postman stopped in front of my house and waited. I approached him and he called for my name. He wanted my name, I/C no and signature if I'm not mistaken. Then, I received a letter from JLKN containing my camp's location, guidebook and etc. That's when my parents and everyone knew about my NS --'
Time passed so fast that finally, 5th of jan arrived and I have to leave for Langkawi. Had been down in the dumps and feeling as miserable as sin since morning as it's gonna be my first time being away from home and what's worse was, separated from my family members and friends for around 3 months' time. That morning, when I reached PISA and got the registration thing done, I stood beside my bus and waited.
As I was looking around, I saw a bunch of beautiful ladies looked exactly like my BFFs walking towards me! IWASSOSHOCKEDANDTOUCHED! like seriously, i didn't expect them to come. I was so touched and moved to tears. <3
Although our hamzhu family doesn't complete as there are 2 more missing, but I'm really really glad that they put in effort to come. Having friends like them is a joy and blessing in my life. <3
I really felt like I'm the happiest girl alive. :')
okay, for the days in camp, I've made a video of it. Do enjoy.
sorry for the bad quality of the video, you can change the quality tho. hehe
Although it's short and simple, but it reminds me of the bitter sweet moments in camp. The time when we used to bath, eat, sleep, walk, gossip, wash clothes, sing, march, laugh, cry and lastly live together. It's unforgettable. :') I'll cherish those beautiful memories forever. <3
Sad to say, everything has come to an end and we have to say goodbye. Farewell my friends, and I wish you all the best in life. May we all meet again in the future and God Bless Us All. (:
